Why am I sulking,
In the far corner?
When I approved,
To be overlooked.
Why has my mind,
Gone totally blank?
While I had chosen,
To step into this chaos.
Why do I sense,
Ignored, yet?
While I cried pails,
Simply for solitude.
Why do my tears,
Not subside, then?
When I brought it:
The distress on me.
Why am I going back,
Into the muddy past?
When only happiness:
It is knocking at my door.
Why do I repeat,
The same blunders?
When I understood,
Those the hard way.
Why I hanker like crazy,
After hostile mirages?
When my heart repeats,
Not to go unnecessarily.
Why do I keep,
Punishing myself?
When my broken heart,
Cannot ever be fixed.
Why my mind rejects,
To stay put for once?
While I get beaten,
Harshly by destiny.
Why do I miss frequently,
The sound of the ringtone?
When I know by heart,
There would be no calls.
Why my core still bleeds,
Seeing the pain of my foes?
While I send silent prayers,
Even for my regular nemeses.
Why do I behave,
Like a total fool?
While cocooned warm,
In my wretched shell?
Why the unseen tension,
Rising in my gentle soul?
Is it my absurd mind,
Or am I an utter fool?
Why can I not break free,
Before it shatters me?
Is it my bleak future,
That chains my limp feet?
Why am I feeling comfy,
With my miserable living?
Smiling and Comfortable,
In my heart-wrenching wails.
Why am I leading,
Life of the ordinary?
While my great potential,
Lies in its unique essence.
Why am I afraid to step,
Into the unknown future?
What is holding me back,
To stride on the new road?